If I died today, I want you to know…
There are three things you should always learn to say (and when):
I love you
Some people have a hard time telling others how they feel. It could be that they were chastised by their parents for expressing themselves when they were younger, and were therefor trained to keep their feelings private. It could be that they don’t actually feel anything for you. It could be that they are just that selfish/self-centered. It could be that they don’t know how to express their feelings.
I have been doing a lot of introspection lately and trying to overcome my demons and embrace my angels. I hang out with a variety of people of a range of ages and it is interesting to see the way others view the world. Some perceptions are rooted in the same ideas (ie. ‘you can’t help those who can’t help themselves’ or ‘take care of yourself first’ etc.) and others are either demented versions of the truth or lessons you never had to learn yourself.
I wish I would have done a lot more introspection in my early 20s because I don’t think I would have made many of the mistakes I did, or at least on as grand of a scale as I did at times. I would have surely made other mistakes, but I would have guarded my heart better; that is the only mistake that hits me the most.
If I Died Today, I Want You To Know:
Don’t get into a routine. Routines are work, home, eat, sleep, love, work, home, eat, sleep, love, work…maybe an activity…why? To what benefit? To prepare for death? Why not prepare for death by living life! Don’t love the same way, take vacations, eat out, sleep in, enjoy. Responsibilty does not have to be boring, does not have to make you a dull person, and does not mean that you have to give up all the fun in life. Fun is what you make it.
If I Died Today, I’d Want You To:
Love somebody with all of your heart. Don’t just be in love with the idea of love. Get to know someone. Take your time. Tomorrow may not be guaranteed, but do you really want to waste years on lust or the love of love? The slower, the better. It’s such a grand adventure getting to know that special someone– getting to see new aspects of who they are and what they like. When you find yourself smiling just thinking about them, the idea of their touch makes your body melt, and you can be in the same room saying nothing at all and still have a good time, you may have found someone you can love with all your heart. Would you do anything short of denying yourself? Would you even have to deny yourself? Your love should just ‘fit’. Don’t play games. Life is indeed too short for that. Love whole-heartedly, intentionally, and with respect. Love somebody truly with all your heart.
If I died today, I would want you to know:
Pay it forward. What are you going to do with something you do nothing with?! If I have to give, I give; why not? You never know when you are going to be in a position to need someone to repay the kindness. And if you never are in that position, you can at least leave this world having helped [change] someone else’s life. You never know the impact you have on someone so why not at least try to make it a positive one? If we all showed random acts of kindness to one another, perhaps we could reverse the perverted nature that we have developed from the sensationlized media that we are consistently exposed to. Perhaps. If I were to die today, I’d want you to know that it couldn’t hurt to try.
Life is all about experiences which create memories which compose our great life movie. Why make a dull documentary when you can make a comedy? A classic dramedy? We want to feel something, so why not make yourself feel? Do something that will make you happy. Laugh, cry, feel…whatever it takes. You get one shot [that you really know of…I personally can’t remember being anyone else and would hate if I do come back to forget and have to relearn such a lesson all over again…] so why not make it the best one? Life is too short. So short. In the scheme of things, we are so miniscule that it’s almost depressing lol. If I died today, I would want you to know that life is too short not to EXPERIENCE it.