Butterflies, anxiety,
Nervous shakes, panic
What can you do
If you can’t understand it
Welcome to my nightmare
Where I lay my heart bare
Everybody stare
At me
Cra-zy
Weak in
My knees
F*ck all relationships
I’m just tryin to deal with this
Road block
Me in
For-give
My sins
Dominating lately
Blinded lust
I see
Fa-ther
Help me
Let me
Be free
Where’s the fire and brimstone
Tragedy that I’ve known
Takin in your scent;
Sunday go repent
Evil that’s inside of me
It’s just this cruel reality
Nothing actuality
This lame attempt at poetry
Why you lookin down at me
Sadducee
Disagree
With everything reality
T. V.
Sit-com
Everything a stink bomb
People look at me wrong
Same song, same beat
Can I make you
My feat
My treat, your pleasure
Will you be
My treasure
Fool’s Gold
Your hold
Damn you’re makin
Me bold
State the facts,
Must be smacked,
Lost that thought
I can’t keep track
Nervous act
Can’t be right
What you sight,
What you see–
This crazy b*tch
Isn’t me
I’m waitin for an invitation
Emotion driven inclination
A night you won’t forget
And surely not regret
God is gonna smite me
Despite me
I think I just
Might be
Insane
Clown posse
Someone get these
Clowns off me
Making fun of Bozo
That lonely feeling I know
Someone change the damn show
Be-fore
You come
Make you want
To get
Some
Intoxicated encore
You have me in an uproar
What am I to do
When all I want is you
Why’d I even go there
This ain’t goin nowhere
Blinded by your smile
Baby stay awhile
Man you set this fire in me
Even in uncertainty
Let me be your casualty
Tru-ly
Faith-ful
Never f*ckin hateful
Always soft and sweet
Baby I’m a treat
Tell me where to meet
You
What the hell should I do
Always right behind you
Wrong.

You look at me
over there;
you judge my life
without a care.

You see the bad
inside of me,
instead of good
that I could be.

You stunt my growth
with every hit,
for love with hate
just don’t fit.

You beat me down
with just one word,
when names from parents
should not be heard.

Support you get
from mom and dad;
you turn to them
when life is bad.

But who is there
when they turn their cheek?
or lends an ear
when you feel weak?

You look at me
with judging eyes,
but your rare evil
you can’t disguise.

Never enough money,
Never enough love,
Never enough mercy
From the good man above.
Always strain
Causing pain
The same lame game:
Life.

Searching for the answers,
No one can help, why?
All they do is sit and stare,
Listenin to you cry.
Forever lost
At great cost
Always pissed off:
Life.
…TBC…

Poison Crimson– Devil’s drink
Rosy death
You
can’t
think
Clouded Judgments– Numbered wrongs
Coward pale
Thinks
you’re
strong
Ruby Tonic– Witch’s brew
Colored hate
What
to
do
Voided Logic– Liar’s end
Teller’s tale
Hurt
a
friend.

I’m sunk in this funk
Got that crunk junk
In my bunk trunk
I’m so drunk punk
I mean punk drunk
Punch drunk
I could punch a drunk monk
In his junk trunk
Just to beat this bunk funk
Say that five times fast
That, that, that
That, that’s not funny
Well I’m sorry honey,
Sweetie, darlin’, dear
Losing you from me
Is the only thing I fear
Use me, abuse me
But if you don’t choose me,
You’ll lose me
Got my head spinnin ‘n turnin
In circles it just goes
Up from down, upside down
This coaster really blows
I’d hate to be your first
If it takes me out of last
You gotta make a choice
This moment passes fast.

Patience is not a virtue of mine
But God tells me He’s got me each time
So I look to my Jesus to save me
Knowing God doesn’t hand out maybes
And I know that I’ll turn out fine
But patience is not a virtue of mine

A moment can define a life
Time changes everything
Fades into the darkness
Surrounds me.