I am constantly in thought. I think about my life, the life of my loved ones, society, and the future. I am constantly befuddled by the bad, evil, and wrong in the world. Perplexed.

I’m fairly intelligent, but I cannot ever seem to wrap my head around what people will do in the name of Love, God, and Country. I’m even more perplexed by what people will do just to do.

Perhaps I should have been a Sociologist; I love people and am fascinated by them. I am fascinated by how people think, why they think, how they act, why they act, and all the other whys and hows you can think of.

Perhaps because I have been through so much in my life, I can’t understand why people have to make everything so difficult and wrong. Sure, I could have been through worse; things can always be worse, but short of being shot, I’ve experienced quite a bit of adversity and have only found that while things can be worse, they can also be better.

The mind. The mind is such a powerful, powerful thing. It can turn us against ourselves and drive us mad. It can be swayed, manipulated, and conditioned to think or do things that we wouldn’t normally do. Or at least we’d like to think we wouldn’t normally do. The mind can cause us to question reality. Alter reality. Forget reality.

I ponder values, the mind, actions, motives, love, hate, good, evil, society, man, people, person, leaders, followers, religion….and yet I still cannot grasp the bad. One life. One life to live and we choose to harm people? We choose to use people? We choose to abuse people? We choose to hate? We choose wrong??? WHY?!?!? WHY?!!?!? WHY?!!??